i've come to realize one night..
"i'm not me anymore!"
"ouh, yeah? so who are u now??"
why did i was thinking bout something like that?
could i say it was absolutely ridyculy nonesense??
.................welll...acctually...
it's NOT!
i stormed out of bed and started scribing something..
1.
2..?
i've been 'locked' here for bout 2months already?
wow! tic-toc!
did time passing without im noticing it?
or i did noticed but ignorance blurring the time out of my head??
what have i done for this 2 months?
............................"study for surela, dear asmaa' athirah..." my cubemate answered.
yih??!! did she read minds?
or it was me speaking out loud?
hehe..im NOT monologing.. bhahaha!
okeh! dear blog..
lets keep it as a secret.
don't tell anyone okay?
:: What I Did In Two Months Time In Mjsc PC ::
--- nothing --- (==")
NOTHING????
yes! nothim!
> i studied, but i dn't know<
> i read, but i couldn't understand<
> i practice, but doesn't work<
> i try, but i'm not focus<
> i took the exams, but i lost my target<
> am i trying hard?<
> or i'm playing hard?<
> what else can/should/must/could i do?<
> shh! do not answer..leave it!<
REMEMBER the qoute? : "everything happens for a reason" :
noooooowww, i'm figuring out something!
maybe i not praying too much?
or maybe i'm not suitable at the college?..hhurm..
last sunday, ive told my mum..
"i'm thinking of going back to TMS.."
"no u're not." she stricted.
herm..im now talking what??!!
"please consider the consequences if u return to TMS"
"lets put the being ashamed aside first."
and so on.. bla...bla...bla...
MOM + Father [united] ---> i've been lectured! hohoho T__T
** i cried one night when everybody was sleeping and only the stars kept with me,with i-know-ALLAH-is listening-to-me **
truly : i'm-so-not-me
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